Filling my cup

Wow. I had quite a serendipitous moment tonight.One that touched my heart and soul, on a very deep level, and I just had to share.

But first, I need to flash back to Summer of 2009, and my wonderful yoga retreat experience in Tulum. I went to Mexico with Sharon, and 9 other yoginis and had a life/soul changing week.


The theme for the week had to do with being joyful, and happy in life. On and off the mat. We spent some time with a mudra that shaped our hands like a cup, or bowl. Sharon would have us fill our cup with good thoughts and energy, and then we would take our hand mudra up over our head, and then spill those thoughts and energy onto our head. It was quite a powerful meditation.

Another one of the meditations Sharon shared with us was to envision what our "cup" looked like. To imagine the color, the shape, and what was inside of the cup. I remember so vividly what my cup looked like. It was square, large and shallow, not quite black - almost like it had a hint of dark red in it, and I was practically mesmerized by the gentle lapping of the little bit of water in the bottom. It reminded me of the way water in a lake gently moves.

Flash forward to my 30th birthday, just this past March. Sharon gave me a very sweet birthday gift; a planter with 3 different types of cacti. I was a bit nervous taking it home, because I have very curious cats. Well, the cats were quite curious, and 2 of the three cacti just didn't make it.

Which brings me to tonight.

I decided to transplant the one living cactus, the aloe plant, to a smaller planter. And the more I'd been looking at the cactus planter, I knew it would be the perfect planter for one of my wedding preparations. After replanting the aloe plant, I put the cactus planter in the sink, and prepared to clean it.

As I cleaned the planter, I watched the little bit of water gently lapping inside. And then it hit me. This is my cup. - it was the vision I had in Tulum just over a year ago.

And I cried.

I cried with joy at having such a beautiful life, and having such beautiful friends like Sharon who unknowingly bring soo much sweetness to my life.

I cried with joy realizing just how much my life has blossomed into the kind of life I am so excited to be living.

I cried with joy at how amazing moments like this, show me beyond a doubt, that the universe does rush in and conspire to make all your dreams come true, if you have the faith to let it.

And I feel so full.

What a beautiful way to begin my commitment to Brandon.